Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Calling on Heavenly Back-Up

Hello everyone.  Time for another update on my progress, or dare I say, temporary lack of progress.  I was prepared to begin my regular exercise journey on the recumbent bike but had to postpone it.  For the past two weeks, I have had new floor tile laid throughout my house and a new back splash installed.  While beautiful, this did limit me to living in one room in my house during the installation.  My bike was placed in the garage while my furniture was stacked in closets, the garage, and my kitchen.  I don’t know if you have lived through a large renovation before, but it’s not pleasant.  There was dust an inch thick on everything.  With my kitchen out of commission, my husband and I ate out for over a week.  Needless to say, this did not work well for weight loss.

My dietary choices were good for the first few days and then I gave in to my desire for more high calorie fare.  The only exercise I got was washing floors (repeatedly to remove the grit) and lifting and moving furniture….which I might add has caused quite a few sore muscles.  All in all, I did some exercise…..although not in the manner I anticipated.

Of course, this means no additional weight loss at this time.  You would think that this might have deterred me, but it has not.  You see, I don’t let temporary circumstances rob me of my joy.  I choose to rise above the difficulties and have patience because I know that God has infinite patience with me.  God’s love is a sure thing.  He never forsakes us and he will get me there in the end.  I’m going to call on “heavenly back-up” for the next two weeks as I get back on track.  I would prefer to pray and ask God to take away my food addiction, but He does not work that way.  However, He does promise He will help me overcome the addiction as I put in the effort.

My house is almost back together and I can now bring my exercise bike back into the house.  So starting tonight, it’s game on!  If you have been in a position where you made a good start on weight loss and then stumbled, you are not alone.  Don’t feel defeated.  God has placed power in us and we can overcome all obstacles.  So, until we talk again, believe in God’s power to help you triumph….I know I do!  

Monday, March 31, 2014

Diet and Exercise Challenges

I can’t believe 2 weeks have gone by and it’s time for another update on my progress. So far, I have lost 6 lbs since I began this journey.  It feels slow but I have made very positive changes in my diet. I have decreased my carbs to 135-140 grams per day; I have kept my diet to no more than 1500 calories per day; I have added more fiber and calcium to my diet; and I have decreased my night time snacking. When I was younger, this would have been at least a 10 lb weight loss but alas, age does take a toll on the metabolism...so I remain patient and continue to manage my food intake.

Food is my addiction and I recognize it for what it is & how I use it...and as with any addiction, it can be left alone or I can choose to challenge the addiction by changing my behavior. I believe that striving to heal an addiction is striving to achieve one of the highest goals in life. It’s an obstacle that requires commitment and faith to challenge on a daily basis. God has promised that if we have the faith of a mustard seed, we can move mountains. I have complete faith in God’s ability to help me move this particular mountain. My addiction is not stronger than the person that I’m becoming. I believe God is using this particular challenge to help me become a better version of myself so that I might continue on the path he has laid out for me.

The next challenge I face is adding exercise to my daily routine. Now anyone who knows me understands that I dislike exercise. I have never felt any endorphins when I exercise although I accept this as a medical fact. The only time I feel anything close to an endorphin release is when I first bite into a warm Krispy Kreme glazed doughnut. There is a rush of satisfaction and pleasure so intense that my whole brain must light up (if I could view it on a PET scan at that particular moment)! Thank goodness I don’t live near a Krispy Kreme. It might be the only time I would want to exercise….walking to and from Temptation Island

As much as I dislike it, I recognize that exercise is necessary if I want to remain fit as I age and also to help speed up my metabolism. I have a recumbent bike that I can ride while watching my HGTV shows. If the pounds go slowly then maybe the inches will go a bit quicker. Anyway, I’ll let you know how it goes in the next posting. Until then, here’s hoping we all see beautiful warm days and lovely spring breezes. J

Monday, March 17, 2014

Commitment

This is NOT Jan enjoying her yogurt.
It’s time for another biweekly update on my progress. It’s been 4 weeks since I began this journey and I’m down 4 pounds. Of course, I was down 4 pounds two weeks ago. I can’t say I’m not a bit disappointed in the slowness of the process. Part of me wants to be upset over this but I refuse to go there. This is a learning experience and I have to re-learn what makes my body burn calories in the most efficient way. I don’t have gastric bypass malabsorption going for me anymore. In the 15 years after weight loss surgery, my body has adapted and learned how to reabsorb calories….and very efficiently I might add. However, I can say that I have maintained a healthy diet and basic exercise since the previous 2 weeks.

My next dietary adjustment is going to slightly decrease my carbohydrate intake. Just once I wish I could sit down and say “I love cauliflower” or “more broccoli please”…but that’s not going to happen. Carbs have always been the sabotaging factor for my diets (before weight loss surgery). Even after surgery, I love thin-crust pizza; I love cheeseburgers, crackers, chips, and rice. These foods call my name….even when I’m not hungry….because I want that euphoric rush that I get after taking those first few bites---and that my friends is the definition of addiction….but one I intend to control. 

If I’m going to be successful, I have to have these in small amounts and stick with our basic tenant of protein first, then vegetables/fruits, and then small amounts of carbs. I also have to make a serious commitment to doing this.

Our Pastor says that we only truly commit to the things we value. If I say I value good health and then don’t fully commit to behaviors that support the ability to obtain good health, then it won’t happen. Our Pastor believes that everyone wants “The Good Life.” We want and value good looks, good health, and even value “getting the goods” (i.e. being successful monetarily).  Instead of valuing “The Good Life” we should be valuing “The God Life.” We all need to commit to loving God, loving each other, and loving ourselves as God loves us. It’s my belief that I can honor God by maintaining the healthy body He gave me. So, I’m committing to decreasing carbs in the next two weeks…we will all find out if that made a difference at the next posting.  

Until then, here is another tip:
Dannon’s Light & Fit Greek Yogurt ---Only 80 calories, 12 grams protein; 9 grams carbohydrate; 8 grams of sugar; and 0 grams fat. I use it as a snack in between meals.  Place it in the freezer for 10 minutes prior to eating and you will have a thick, creamy, and refreshing pick-me-up dessert!

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Good Intentions

Well bariatric family, it’s been two weeks since I began my renewed weight-loss journey and, based on the feedback I received, I truly believe God has led me to create this blog.  I am happy to report that I’ve lost four pounds, although most of that occurred during the second week. As you may already know, the road to weight loss is paved with good intentions.

I intended to start eating lower carbs two Mondays ago.  I intended to eat more fruits two Mondays ago, and I intended to start exercising two Mondays ago.  Isn’t it odd how we always intend to start things like this on Mondays?  Tuesday is almost as good, but if it gets to Wednesday, forget it!  Now, I might as well wait until the following Monday, which is what I did.

I remembered our pastor saying, “God doesn’t say there won’t be obstacles in life.  God says He will be there to help us through the problems if we call upon him.” So when week one did not start as I intended, I prayed for strength to begin, and I received it. I made a plan, a grocery list, and took action. 

The first few days are always the hardest, and temptations seemed to be everywhere (birthday celebration; eating out with family; job fatigue making me want to succumb to the drive through, etc.)  I found I had to give God a call every day last week and we had lengthy conversations. Still, He brought me support. Four people contacted me to let me know they were inspired by my blog, and oddly enough, I lost four pounds. Co-incidence??? Maybe, but I wouldn’t mind if I heard from another four people this week and let’s see what happens!

Tip: Try this great-tasting and satisfying breakfast for only 160 calories!
Butterball low-sodium turkey bacon is great! You need to cook it until it is dark on both sides. It will look burnt, but it’s not. At only 25 calories and two grams of fat per slice, it fulfills my need for crunchy/salty tasting things.  On my morning whole-wheat toast I melted two slices of 30-calorie fat-free cheese under the broiler and added two slices of turkey bacon. Mmm…melted cheese and bacon.  My taste buds were happy.  Give it a try if you are more than two years out from surgery and can tolerate soft bread.


Monday, February 17, 2014

A Shared Weight-Loss Journey

This is a message to my bariatric “family.” I plan on writing a bi-monthly blog because I need your support.  That’s what families do – they support each other in times of need.

A Love/Love Relationship
I’ve always had a love/love relationship with food.  I love food, and once I eat it, food loves me and wants to hang around – especially in the hip and thigh area! During the past two years, I have been dealing with more stress than usual. This has caused me to embrace my old friend, food. Because of this, I have regained 40 lbs. When the scale confirmed my weight gain (and I regained my composure), I began to replay old tapes in my head: I felt like a failure.

You see I’m the Bariatric Program Manager who lost 140 lbs in 1998.  I’ve always tried to serve as an inspiration to our patients, showing them you can live a healthy life after weight-loss surgery. In regaining the weight, I tapped into my old insecurities; I had failed myself and my patients.

I’ve always used food as a way to regulate my emotions. I ate when I was happy, sad, bored, restless, stressed, etc.  In the past, I felt I had to compensate for my weight in order to feel worthy and experience acceptance from others.  I became a “people pleaser.”  Even after I had weight-loss surgery, I still dealt with secret feelings of insecurity and unworthiness. To the world I was self-confident, but in the deepest part of my soul I had doubts, even though I was unaware of them most of the time. 

The Ah Ha! Moment
As a Christian, I prayed to the Lord to make me strong and self-confident.  I had my “Ah ha!” moment driving down Brent Lane, if you can believe that. God put it in my heart and mind that I was always worthy, just the way I am. The Lord accepts us all, and is not judgmental. I did not have to do anything to earn this, such as being thin enough, being smart enough, etc. It’s just the way it is. Believe me, that was a breakthrough for me! At that moment, I chose to take back my personal power and place myself in God’s hands, and in your hands.

So my friends, even with God on my side, I’m asking for your help, support and encouragement. I choose to lose weight because I want to remain healthy. This is not a fear-driven impulse. I’m not afraid I won’t be loved and accepted unless I lose 40 lbs.  My desire to change comes from a place of love; love for myself and as a way to honor God for giving me a healthy body.

In two weeks, I’ll post again with an update on my progress.  My journey is personal, but if it helps someone else who is struggling with weight regain, then the blessing will be greater. Let me end on a positive note. I’m a bariatric surgery patient who has kept off 100 lbs for more than 15 years.  As for the other 40 lbs, which has decided to rejoin me, with God’s help, hard work and your support, I’ll kick them to the curb – one pound at a time!